Adrenaline Junkie

So I realized something about myself tonight that I didn’t really like and I really want to change… even though I am laid back, relaxed and whatnot – I am kind of uptight! Well, maybe uptight isn’t the best way to describe it… but I am certainly not adventurous enough… I realized this tonight when I went with my friends Travis and Maggie out to Travis’ Mom’s house in the country to ride 4wheelers. I haven’t ridden a 4wheeler in like 10 years and even then when I did it was alongside of a lake on very flat ground… So, when Travis suggested this – I was all for it! All was going great at first… we are cruising down this road, the weather is amazing, i’m having a blast…. Then Trav says “Let’s go on some trails” .. trails.. sounded fine to me since the image I imagined in my head are nice, lush trails with birds chirping, well beaten paths, totally safe…. Wrong. We start going through the woods and it was anything but what I imagined… I am praying the entire time thinking I am going to flip the 4wheeler because we are going up hills, i am tipping backwards, going over huge rocks, trees… getting smacked in the face by trees, flat out running into trees… So, in hindsight, it was a blast – we even stopped out in the middle of a huge field and just watched the stars, listened to coyotes, it was awesome… But on the “trails”.. not so much. I was whiny, stubborn and poor Travis – I just flat out yelled at him a few times because I was terrified. So thus I realized – I wish I was an adrenaline junkie!! I wish stuff like that – going crazy off roading on a 4wheeler – gave me a huge rush instead of making me scared and whiny… I mean, I chased tornados and loved it! What happened to that spirit of adventure…..?